| Been a while |
[Apr. 9th, 2006|01:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | No one but you, We will rock you Live cast | ] |
Has been quite a while, what has happen?
Well I am very lazy, but thats really not a good excuse.
Well I am writing a book about 2 worlds coming together with magic and myth as the centre of it all, it is coming along nicely, I have a friend who is helping to draw some of the charactors, this I hope will help inspire me more.
I have also just done a complete re-install of my computer, Roller Coaster 3 just kept crashing, I have no idea why, but after the install it seems ok, may have to test it a little more (sounds like a good excuse to play it more. Once it is working ok I may have to update my website with some of my coasters and stuff, so I can share my greatness with everyone......Yeah right..Like anyone will believe I'm great.
Just got a new fridge freezer, the old one was small and filled up to quick, our new one is fab, and massive, and holds lots of beer. Always good.
Work is still pants, when will the goverment realise we can only do so much with so many staff, last week alone we had 3 violent gits in the jobcentre, and only one got banned, and thats only because he tried to headbutt a member of staff.
I also get massages now, which I find really helpful for my back problems, I can really recommend them to everyone, they are really great.
Oh not sure if I mentioned it, I went to Scotland and in the zoo there they got Koala's, and they are sooooooooo cute, so goto Edinburgh zoo and see them. At last I have seen my fave animal in the world, I am happy.
Looking forward to going to Manchester later this year to visit Purple Spider and Tsunami Girl, will be nive to see them again. |
|
|
| Been a while |
[Sep. 17th, 2005|11:31 am] |
|
Well we have just boooked a holiday to Scotland, so we can see koalas at Edinbourough zoo, and see the fab castle, and I just got a copy of the entire Mysterious cities of gold tv series on DVD, had a quick watch of a little bit to see the quality, and it looks like video quality, with good sound, which is great because DVD's were not about when it was shown on telly. So my spare time may be taken up by searching for the Mysterious cities of gold, and looking for cute Koalas in Scotland. |
|
|
| spain and Sea lions |
[May. 23rd, 2005|08:29 pm] |
I'm sitting in The caribe resort Hotel in Spain, near Portaventura theme park. It is very hot, and I've got a bloody tan, tried hard not to get one, but there you go.
Today me and Suede went swimming with Sea Lions, and they are soooooooo cute. First of all we met Minnie, she was 20, and almost blind, but she was soooo nice. Then we met Phillippa and her baby, who argued over who was the prettier of the two. We also met Estefan, who was a huge male and he liked kissing everyone, except Suede, because her hair interfeared with his whiskers and confused him. If thats not a poor excuse, I don't know what is?
All the females kissed us as well, but they were not right for me, they had a bad case of fish breath.
May update agian when I get home tomorrow. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Feb. 25th, 2005|06:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  uncomfortable | ] |
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME
01 - The dark
02 - Change
03 - Unknown
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND
01 - Most languages
02 - People that are afraid, and abuse others to cover it
03 - Why what we wear makes so much difference
THREE THINGS I'D LIKE TO LEARN
01 - How to make lots of money, minimum effort
02 - Hypnosis
03 - Java and flash
THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW
01 - Red top
02 - Black trousers
03 - Wedding Ring
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK
01 - A PC
02 - Superman
03 – Pic of me and my dad
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
01 – Learn to dive
02 – Disney World again, I love it there
03 – Have a family of my own, I have it now with my wife, but I want kids
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
01 - Friendly
02 - Open-minded
03 - Creative
THREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY
01 - Quick to fire up
02 - Shy
03 - Stubbon
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
01 – May have irish somewhere
02 – May have Scottish
03 - English
THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
01 - Smile
02 - Legs
03 - My mind
THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
01 - facial hair
02 - Belly
03 – Imune system, it attacks itself
THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU
01 - I am to loyal for my own good
02 - If I care about you alot, I really find it hard to say no
03 - I put others before me quite often
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
01 - Fab
02 – grumpy
03 – HUG?
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO
01 – Hawaii, the other island, have been to Oahu
02 – Japan
03 – 47 States in America, done Nevada, Hawaii and Florida
THREE NAMES THAT YOU GO BY
01 – Dave
02 - David
03 - Oh not you again
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE OR HAD
01 - Tosky
02 - Tosk
03 - Dark Angel |
|
|
| Gonna get Medieval on your ass |
[Feb. 4th, 2005|05:57 pm] |
Yes last Saturday I had a Medieval Banquet is St Katherines Dock in London, what a 'kin fablous night it was.
20 of us went along, saw such things as a 776 year old strong man, and he was impressive, a fire eater, 2 men having a sword fight, and loads of wonderful wenches. The whole evening from start to finish was amazing, the staff were all great, got right into part, our wench was great, she was so energetic, and looked after us all really well, the costumes the girls and guys wore were all great, the only down side is the free beer was shit, bloody awful, but the wine and cider were ok, but the food was lovely, drank the soup from the bowl, the chicken main course was really nice.
The thing that makes it so good are the staff, they make everything link so well, and they entertain even better.
I will go back again, next time I will dress up all medieval. Maybe as a wench, well OK maybe not, but am open to bribes. |
|
|
| Many Things |
[Jan. 27th, 2005|11:04 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
Well I have had my birthday and am now 30, not as scary as I thought, I have my wife with me, what more do I need. Well I got a new digicam, very fab, the last boxset of DS9 so the 2 series of star trek I wanted I now have, thats DS9 and TNG. I also got ground hog day and Days of Thunder which is cool. And I got Star Wars Battlefront, looking forward to playing that. Tomorrow I am going out with friends from work for beer and chinky, and on Saturday I am getting together with family for a medieval banquet. Both sound very good to me :o)
After all birthdays are a time to spend with family and friends, because with out them you are slightly less, and with them you can be a part of something greater than yourself. However my friends are civil servents, so I am not expecting much, apart from beer and a laugh. :o)
Naa they are great people.
My new cam is great, has a fab blue light on it and makes funny noises, so watch out me gonna take lots of pics.
Went to Camden yesterday, got some purple shoes with black cobwebs on them, how fab???
Not much else to say |
|
|
| Random Things... |
[Jan. 9th, 2005|10:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none sorry | ] |
*Thirteen random things you like*
01) My wife
02) PS2
03) Gamecube
04) Good friends you can trust and know there always there
05) Cathy Giddy my adopted koala
06) Koalas
07) My cuddly koala
08) my cuddly koala my wife got me
09) nice people
10) flowey clothes
11) Musicals
12) Goth stuff
13) Timothy Zhan star wars books
*Twelve Movies*
01) Star Wars 4 a new hope
02) Star wars 5 Empire
03) Star wars 6 Jedi
04) Spiderman 2
05) Grease 2 (though no one else like it)
06) Three Musketeers (one with Chris O donnel and Gabrielle Anwar)
07) Star Trek 4
08) Star Trek first contact
09) Major League (both)
10) Shrek 1 and 2
11) Moulin Rouge
12) Starlight Express (when the make a movie of it which they should do)
*Eleven Artists/Bands*
01) Iron Maiden
02) Queen
03) Vixen
04) Meatloaf
05) G4
06) Disney (done some fab songs, Hakuna Matata)
07) Gloria Estefan
08) Starlight Express
09) Riverdance
10) Evanescence
11) Strawberry Switchblade
*Ten things on your computer desk*
01) Picture of my dad
02) Tifa
03) speakers
04) mess
05) phone
06) Jango fett lego model
07) Earrings
08) nut case (with nuts in it)
09) Squirtle
10) meatloaf cd
*Nine Good Friends*
01) My wife
02) Darth Han
03) Judas
04) Kerry
05) Mr P
06) Stitch
07) Dale
08) Debs
09) to many to mention
*Eight Favorite Foods*
01) chinky take away
02) see above
03) see above
04) egg fried rice
05) crispy duck
06) duck chinky style
07) burgers
08) garlic bread
*Seven Things You Wear Daily*
01) undies
02) socks
03) t-shirt
04) trousers
05) belt
06) phone
07) something else those who know me well will guess
*Six Things That Annoy You*
01) People who expect everything to be given to them
02) smelly people
03) companies who dont care about the ground level workers
04) closed minds
05) ignorance
06) people who you think are good friends not treating you that way
NUMBER FIVE WHERE ARE YOU?
Here
*Four TV Shows DECENT FORMS OF TELEVISED MEDIA You (have deigned to) Watch(ed) (not while aired)*
01) Star Trek TNG & DS9
02) Friends
03) babylon 5
04) Spooks
*Three Celebrities MEDIA FIGURES You Have a Crush on* note from me: ONLY THREE????????
01) Kiera Knightly
02) Helen Slater as Supergirl
03) Long haired one from shakespears sister, also from Bananarama
*Two Things You Can't Live Without*
01) my wife
02) my cudly koala
*Name One Thing You Want More Than Anything*
01) people to accept each other for what they are |
|
|
| Um |
[Jan. 9th, 2005|10:50 pm] |
Been told off for not putting much here lately, so here you go :oP
Got a fab new phone that plays MP3's and it beklches when I get a txt msg, he he. Yes I know I am childish but I don't care. |
|
|
| My year Nicked from a Purple Spider |
[Dec. 20th, 2004|10:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | uncomfortable | ] |
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Refused to work due to health and safety and went on strike, lived a year as a married man
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
- yes, have kept it for many years, not to make new years resolutions
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
- The girl who sat next to me
4. Did anyone close to you die?
- no
5. What countries did you visit?
- England
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
- More confidence.
7. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
6/12/04 my first anniversary
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
-Getting respect for doing my health and safety job well by the 3 managers I work for
9. What was your biggest failure?
- Not always being me, conforming to others idea of normality, being jealous of other people
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
- Only my AS, very painful, but life goes on
11. What was the best thing you bought?
- I really have no idea
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
- My wife, she puts up with me
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
- not appalled or depressed, but dissapointed, a former good friend and a family member, wont say why though
14. Where did most of your money go?
- game, clothes, wife, shopping
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
anniversary
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
- cant think of one
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? sadder, this time last year I was in Las Vagas
b) thinner or fatter? erm.. about the same... could do with loosing more weight
c) richer or poorer? richer, wedding is paid off
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
- Taken time for friends, they drift away, likle all things precious they need to be looked after, and raising money for people who need it.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
- Trying to get out of bed, I want to wake up and just get out of bed, but bad nasty painful bodies make it something I dread, and it is a fight every morning.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
- In an indian with Suede's family
21. Did you fall in love in 2004?
- No, but am still there
22. How many one-night stands?
- None
23. What was your favorite TV program?
Friends
X-men evolution
Spooks
Croc files (if it has koalas on it)
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
- I have fallen out with someone and cant be bothered to tell them, sad thing is that person wont notice
25. What was the best book you read?
- A star wars one by Timothy Zhan, but all is Star Wars books are great
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
- Dr and the medics
27. What did you want and get?
- Playstation 2, which my wife got me for my birthday, after telling me I can never have one due to having a gamecube
28. What did you want and not get?
- didnt want to fall out with my friend
29. What was your favourite film of this year?
- Incredibles
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
- Had a friend over, got dressed up and hand chinky
31.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
- Wining the Lottery! need to do it though
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
- Black and comfy
33. What kept you sane?
- Suede, and seeing people worse of than me, makes you realise that you are not that bad off.
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
- Kiera Knightly
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
- Cuts in DWP for no good reason, becamer a game who can cut the most jobs
36. Who did you miss?
- My fallen out with friend
37. Who was the best new person you met?
- There are many, would not say close friends, but there is possibilities
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
- Life is worth living, and you never realise what you have, till it is gone, and we are luckier than we think
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year;
- you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive |
|
|
| Drinking all night |
[Nov. 14th, 2004|01:02 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
Been a while, my chum Carmilla slapped me for not updating for a while, so here is an update, last night Carmilla Judas my wife and me got together, and all but Judas drank lots, had a huge chinky, took some nice pics of carmilla in a couple of dresses she liked, and I will send them down later, she also curled my hair with her hair curlers. We watched a bit of Strictly come dancing and x-factor which were both ok. Drank a bit more, had a few outfit changed, and genrally had a great time. Carmilla did report to possibly having seen a huge spider on our chair, but she did say 'I am not sure, I could have imagined it.' So wether a huge spider ran accross the chair is still a mystery, we believw it was a weather balloon sent by area 51. Local USA Govermant official declared that this is there story, and they are sticking to it.
Also upgraded Carmilla's PC, stuck 256 ram in it, a 5-1 soundcard, a dvd rom-cd writer and a fast cd-rom in it. Added a few little tweaks and re partitioned the hard drive, as her root drive has no space left. Wanted to put a 2nd hard drive in, but sadly the tower was built by some sad company that do not concider the user may one day like to upgrade her computer. Silly sods.
Have to say Judas made a very nice Nurse last night (she is so gonna kill me for mentioning this :o)
The night was a fun night, but as always went to quickly, need more time for good friends. Which brings me to a tough choice I have to make soon. Which is one private journal, so you need to be a friend. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Oct. 14th, 2004|03:00 pm] |
You are Rowlf.
You are a loner, and love classical music, You can
play the piano without opposable thumbs. Then
again, you are just a Muppet.
ALSO KNOWN AS:
Ol' Brown Ears
HOBBIES:
Piano playing, punning, fetching.
QUOTE:
"My bark is worse than my bite, and my piano
playing beats 'em both."
FAVORITE MOVIE:
"The Dogfather"
FAVORITE COMPOSER:
Poochini
FAVORITE SONG:
"I've Never Harmed An Onion, So Why Should
They Make Me Cry?"
What Muppet are you?
brought to you by Quizilla |
|
|
| Water water everywhere, and not a drop to drink!!! |
[Oct. 14th, 2004|02:43 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  annoyed | ] |
Got home from work yesterday, and a strange noise was emingating from the dining room, so I peeked in and there was water pooring from the lampshade, the carpet and kitchen were soaked, the gerbils had waterwings, and the kitchen light ball was half filled with water. I turned the water off, and looked uptairs to find the cause and the bathroom radiator was firing water across the room and a silly rate. Suede's mum and dad arrived, and we stopped the flow of water to a constant dripping, ripped the carpet up and swore lots. Suede arrived home, not a good welcome. After getting it under controle, not being able to use lights,or the cooker, we went and got KFC. Chips were a little overcooked.
Damn what a day, so taken today off to sort insurance and so forth. Also took some shoes back to Tescos, as they were to small. Damn me for having feet.
Not much else to say regarding that.
Did however have a nice break at Butlins, saw many bands, including a fave of mine, Dr and the Medics, and Limahl, he sang NeverEnding Story, how cool? There were also several tribute bands, covering madness and bon jovi. We went woith 2 very good friends, Han and Bec, and drunk alot between us. Had alot fo fun, and got to meet the Dr and his band who are all insane and totally bonkers. Got some pics of them with us which are all on my site www.tosky.co.uk feel free to peek at them. |
|
|
| Chitty Chitty Bang Bang |
[Sep. 2nd, 2004|09:12 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | excited | ] |
Yep guess what??? Yes I saw Chitty yesterday, up London in the Palladium. Have to say was a lot better than I thought it would be, the car was amazing, they way it flew around on stage was great and very clever. Gary Wilmott has a spectacular voice, far better than I remember, then again I mainly remember him hosting a chuildrens program called 'So you want to be Top'. Sadly Brian Blessed was no longer in the cast, but Lional Blair was, and made a very good childcatcher, but his legs are very skinny. Though it was quite good, not sure if I would like to see it again, my main gripe was lack of space for my legs. I am disabled and need to move my legs around a bit otherwise they really begin to hurt. There was no room to move about, and my legs hurt like hell, I know they want to get loads of people in, but I could only just get my legs in. But all in all an enjoyable show, little bit of humour and very family focused, if you have kids they will love it.
Now on to work, after a year and a half of waiting I am finally getting a high level risk assesment, this is because the office desks are built is such a pants way as to not allow them to be set up correctly, yes if you sit there long enough you will permently bugger your neck. As mine is well on the way without there help I think they should do what Health and Safety rules state, and make my desk ergonomically correct. Cant see it happening, but I for some reason am optomistic.
Only 18 days to alton towers with Debs and Lou, so AIR here we come, and me and Suede have a 4 poster bed, how cool, may have to tie her up .
My other friend Judas seems to be getting on well in her manhunt, so far she has killed 4 and is still munching her way through 1 of them. Only joking, seem it is going well.
Oh well me off, have new series of The Think It's All Over on, which is normally fun. |
|
|
| I can see clearly now the blur has gone |
[Aug. 31st, 2004|05:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | uncomfortable | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lovce is gone, Muppets | ] |
Arrrg it finally happened, the only bit of my boddy that don't give me grief, nopw is giving me grief, yes I need glasses, and I got glasses. The good bit is that the goverment paid for them for my job, only need them for pc and reading, but am reliably informed I can leave them on all the time, will take strain of my eyes and stop them getting worse, oh need them also for telly. Oh well, guess 29 not a bad age to get glasses.
Went and saw Judas's new home, lovely curtains, nice floral pink :o) he he. She wondered why when she taped Casualty the other day it didn't work, I explained that it might have something to do with the video not having an ariel plugged into it, and no ariel lead from vid to telly.
AND she is dating (prelimary stages) a new man, good luck Judas.
Gerbils are still fat, keep giving them things to do, but they still fat, might have to cut down on choccies.
Got shouted at today by another customer who just would not listen, so when she got rude I hung up, felt much better, and also those of you that read this, the person I winged about the other day, is now in prison, no ideas what for, but see what goes around comes around.
Looking forwarsd to Alton towers, only a few weeks away, still not sure what to wear, but I am sure I will do last minute choice as usual, also depends on weather, but cant be to silly as I shall be going upside down several times. Also going with Purple Spider and Louise which should make it even more fun. Finally get to go on AIR.....I can flyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Going to Lakeside soon to get wallpaper, need to re do livingroom, walls not been done for quite a while. Looking at silver paper at the moment, but who knows?
Damn my shoulder hurts, bloody flair ups, oh well I'll get by. |
|
|
| Hmmmm Birthdays |
[Aug. 23rd, 2004|10:05 pm] |
Well soon I am 30, scary huh, might have to start acting mature, but before that happens I want to do something special for it. Well OK it a little while off, 26th Jan to be precise. But for all good things they need planning, and planning has started. I am wanting to goto a Medieval Banquet in London, get served by Busty Wenches and eat drink and be merry. Dunno bout you guys, but sounds like a plan to me. I want to invite family friends and work friends to, see how many I can get (drunk).
In other important news I have been playing Grand Theft Auto 3 on the PC. How silly is this game, you can beat people with baseball bats and so forth, quite sick, and you can nick cars and run the owners over. But my fave bit is you can put your own MP3's in the game to listen to whilst driving. gotta be good.
What else has happened, had a good chat to my chum Judas, who has finally moved out of her family home in to anther family home with her sister. Hmmm this family home stuff makes her sound like a Queen. But really shes a night mare he he he :o)
Cleaned the gerbils out the otherday, they are getting soooooo fat, they only like chocolate, guess thats because there girls. But they are ooh so cute and sweet.
Can't think of much else to write, so I will leave you in peace and I shall sod off.
Bye |
|
|
| Grrrrrrr |
[Aug. 18th, 2004|10:36 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | None at the moment, but am feeling a little peckish | ] |
No many of you (well OK the 3 of you that read my LJ) will know I work in a benefit centre, I advise people about the benefit Job seekers Allowance. I treat all my customers with respect, and try to do the best for everyone I can, if I can bend a rule to help someone I will. I am the type of person who gets a kick out of making someone smile, I like to think I am easy going and genuine. I always try to be fair, and will give a bollocking if needed, I am not going to be walked over. I also know that in this job I deal with people who quite often are down on there luck and are desperate for money. But there is a differance between desperate and being a tosser.
I had a person who will remain unanamed because of the data protection act, sex will also be unrevield for the same reasons.
This person, had done 2 weeks work, carried on signing and got paid over £500 for this 2 weeks work, he told me a weeks work, and could not remember how many hours and how much money he got ( we found out by calling the person who employed him ) so I told him I could not pay any money to him until this work had bee declared. I also told him if he had worked over 16 hours his claim would be closed and he would have to reclaim. Well he didn't take this well, and he believed I was being petty, and he was not at fault for not telling us about this work he done. So I was in the wrong. He started swearing at me and I asked him to stop, he continued and called me a f'ing C**t (without the start and in its fullest form with thrown in loudness and in a very threatning manor), so I walked away only to have him throw his signing book at me in a similar manor that you would flick a playing card. It narrowly missed my face, and the chap was removed from anywhere near me, taken to another part of our building, found out from then he was going to get no money, so he kicks a hole in the wall.
Now if you did this anywhere else you would be instantly banned, and possibly have the police called, but not us, oh no, we have to go through proceedures, to find out if we can ban him.
Why do people have to be so abusive, and why is it quite often the abusive one get sorted quickly, what are we teaching them? Shout, be a git, throw things, and we'll sort you out. well sod that.
OK Rant over
Must calm down, Will form a circle tomorrow with workfriends, we shall link hands and sign Kum By Yaa.
I'm not a hippy, but why can't we all put as much effort into being nice as we do in being gits. I am sure the world would be a better place. |
|
|
| Questions |
[Aug. 13th, 2004|11:03 pm] |
Please answer about me
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. .
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you? |
|
|
| I remembered |
[Aug. 2nd, 2004|11:22 pm] |
Today I was reminded about something very close to me. My dad, who died almost 9 years ago. I have already written this once, but my computer decided to delete it, so sorry if it seems disjointed, I am somewhat emotional right now.
I saw a lady today, who told me she lost her husband a year ago today, and was having a tough time, not helped by her friend who said she should move on as it has been a year. (Good friend??????)
I shared with her my perspective on close people that have passed away, and I shall share it again.
I believe that you love a person with your heart, body and mind. When that person has died, it is impossible to love the body, as it is gone, only the memory of that body remains, but the heart and mind are things that have shaped us all the time we knew them, there love, there words, these are things that change people at the very core of who we are. If a person has died, it is only there body that has gone, the love and the mind is carried on through the people they touched throughout their lives. Therefore by continuing to be yourself, these people live through us. By speaking and laughing, sharing memories on those people they continue to live in our hearts. When you stop remembering, and speaking about them, then they are gone, they have truly died.
I take so much comfort that in me is my dad, and if anyone tells me to stop speaking about him, and it’s time to move on, they can shove it up their arses. Sure I remember many things about my dad, good and bad, but I focus on the good, as these are the best bits, the parts I like to have as part of me. I am proud that my dad lives in me, and that he still influences they way I am. I could not tell you the day or month he died, these are not important, why would I want to remember how I felt like my life was being ripped apart? It is all a blur, but I do still go out on his Birthday with my wife, and have a drink, and toast him, I still celebrate his birthday, because birthdays are a celebration of life, and my dad deserves a good celebration.
The lady thanked me for a new perspective on life and death, and vowed to speak about her husband as she always had, with love and honour, how it should be, and to hell with her friend, she will respect her, but she must also be respected.
Dad I miss you so much, I miss that you never knew your daughter in law, my wife, I am gutted you did not share my wedding day with me, that you missed my birthday, and that of all our family, I miss that your no longer downstairs for me, that I cant call you to share thoughts about the day, I am devastated that you never knew my wife and her family, which are now our family. I miss you so much, and I hope you are still as proud of me, as I am to be your son, I love the fact that you live on through me, and several of the things that made you who you are make me who I am, because of you I am me, your life influenced me, as I will influence others, and they to will pass on the good that you did, with out knowing, but dad your actions touched the world, they may not know or care, but I do know, and do care. I see everything you gave me, and more.
I love you, and miss you, and hurt that I will never feel your touch, or hear your words.
But I swear you will never be forgotten.
Remember tell the people you love that you love them, because sad and cruel as it may be, you may never get another chance. |
|
|
| Long time no see |
[Jul. 28th, 2004|11:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hot | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Shrek and Fiona, and a bit of donkey | ] |
Hello again, been quite a while since last post, well would not have been so long if the entry a couple of weeks ago went up when I sent it to go, but something happened and it didn't go and I really could not be bothered to re type it all, so I will try to say what has happened from April 20th onwards.
Well I have booked up to go to another Butlins 80's week end which I am really looking forward to, this time Judas and Lady Carmilla (Darth Han) are coming we my wife and me, so should be a good drunk week end with great friends, fab music and some dodgy 80's fashion.....Get those crimpers and leg warmers out and party the night away...he he.
Oh my wonderous company are still not giving us a fair payrise from last year, so we are on strike again. It is sooo bad, we have been fighting over this rise for over a year, they didn't even have an offer on the table last July when the rise was due, (did the same again this year) and when they made an offer, we refused it as it was pants, so they imposed it with out back pay, so we lost out big time, and just to make us feel a little better they have decided to close 550 of our 650 processing offices, and announce approx 40,000 job cuts. Damn they know how to make there workers loyal. Which in quite amusing after the Whitehall II study, showing a main cause of illness related time of is due to stress, which major participating factors are, Job satisfaction (we get shouted at by various members of the public) Job security (see previous comments about job cuts) and feeling valued. Do you spot the pattern??? If I was a sceptic I might say they are trying to drive us out so thatthey don't have to offer redunancy packets to anyone. But I see the best in everyone, but they are making it damn hard to do that. I have had people threaten to punch me in the face for doing my job, and this person is still allowed to come and see myself and my work friends, despite being abusive, a bully and constantly trying to intimidate us to get what he wants. Is this right???
Ok there goes my winge.
My house is over run by Koala's.
I have my Koala who is older than me, and he goes everywhere with me within reason, and Suede has hers, but we also have there 2 little ones, another one I got of ebay called Yuki as he looked so cute, Suede also has a brown koala in the bedroom, for xmas I managed to get 4 more from some dear friends (think they may have also been birthday pressies). Any my very dear chum Kerry who is no back from her years travel round the world sent me 10 little koalas through the post, oops and forgot to mention Basil the magnetic koala on the fridge. So there you go, we are over run, I will need to order more Eucolyptus for them all.
If you have read my last message, you will know I had a little mobility issue, which is much better than it was, I am still in alot of pain, but I can walk, until the next time.
Oh well must dash
byeeee |
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
| |
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
tosky's journal
Tosky